This year I wasn’t select for PASS Data Community Summit and that’s a good thing. WAIT WHAT?
That doesn’t even make sense! Aren’t I supposed to be all “More Women Speaking”?!? Well yes. Here’s the thing – after reading a lot of the abstracts, seeing how many people submitted, and knowing mine was kinda niche AND that I had rushed my general session submission- I realized it shouldn’t have made the cut.
There I said it.
At some point I even did some back of the napkin math and realized purely from an odds standpoint (all other things being equal), I had about an 8%-11% chance of being selected. After reading a lot of abstracts I realized that if I HAD been selected, then that would have meant I was selected more because I was a woman, and not because it was a submission that rose to the top. And that is DEFINATELY not what I would want. Yea, yea, I realize that some of this is arbitrary because it’s based on different volunteers’ opinions, but I still would have felt a bit sad if mine had made it after reading others, and I would have thought my gender played a role.
You see, a lot of my younger years I was sometimes told I was selected for things because I was a woman. Often by people not even in my field. In one case, by a [male] friend of mine! People that had never worked with me and didn’t have my bosses handy to tell them different. And I have no qualms telling you that my bosses would. Case in point: my last boss CC’d me on an email he sent to another person touting me as “The Purple Unicorn they were looking for”, without telling me beforehand. (This was after I left the company and ironically, I wasn’t even looking for a new position.)
Being a Woman In Technology doesn’t mean I want my voice risen above others. That would imply that we care about gender over quality. Even worse – it would imply that there isn’t enough quality women voices, and that simply is not true. (I’d argue that it is often the opposite problem with more average men in the industry – simply based on numbers.) Plainly put, I want our industry to figure out WHY it’s difficult to get more women speakers and address it from that problem. Heck, lets tackle why so many of us leave IT and how to put more women in the pipeline while we are at it. Wait, I have a whole list of things if you really want to get me going…
But back to the main topic: I wasn’t selected for PASS and that’s how it should be. Remember how I said I rushed my general submission and it was kinda niche? Turns out there are 2 similar sessions that made it and though they are not the exact same as mine, they are with same core technologies and are less niche then my submission. And with better abstracts. One is being presented by a woman and one by another under-represented group. I’ll be sure to attend.
Data Work Mom 